Ocean

Today is Mother's Day. Initially plan to take my mum for 'Dim Sum' but end up my mum preparing dinner for us. After the dinner, we planned to visit my grandma who's very sick. It took us around 50 minutes to cross the bridge which is under construction now. When we reached there, I can heard the chanting of Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo came from the 1st floor where my grandma stayed... I just had a bad feeling. When I saw my cousin who came to open the door for us was crying in red eyes, I knew at once that my grandma no longer around... She just passed away at 9pm meanwhile we reached there around 15 minutes later... Missed the last moment to be with her. She was sleeping peacefully on the bed, holding tightly on her prayer beads. Actually I just can vividly remember that when I was small, I was once taken care by her because my mum didn't manage to get a babysister to take care of me. The only memory I'm still having was her chanting of Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo and recitati...

最近也不知道是不是荷尔蒙失调，仰或心理不平衡，总是觉得很郁闷，很暴躁。做什么也提不起劲来。 在公司里，就像一个没有灵魂的躯壳。早上一到就是把耳机塞进耳朵里，开着最近下载的日文歌，重复又重复的听。把工作做完后，就在哪儿发呆，东张西望。今天更无聊到，可以写部落格。。。 回家后，什么也不理。吃晚饭后就是打开电脑，又重播同样的歌，然后躺在床上，什么也没做，不知不觉就睡着了。进入深夜时，我就会惊醒。把电脑关了后，就开始在床上翻来覆去，很难入眠。 只要母亲开始唠叨，我的心情就更糟了。乱发一场脾气，拍拍屁股就走了。 难道这就是所谓的更年期？不会吧？那么早。。。可是种种症状很明显的显示出我的心理很不寻常。 女人的心情就像天气一样-阴晴不定。有时连女人自己都不知道自己为什么会那样。就像我现在。。。如果医学上有药治这种病，我想销售量应该很好 :)

开始启用 ‘Ocean’ 应该是大学开始吧。那时我第一次登录MSN。左想想，有想想，用什么代名呢？？？ 结果就启用了‘Ocean’ - 海洋。 在大学时，记不起有没有人问过我为什么用 ‘Ocean’。 可能有,可是印象不深刻。 当我开始出来社会工作后，尤其是我的旧公司，同事开始问我为什么用‘Ocean’。 我都是以微笑带过。 当他们开始把 ‘Ocean’ 取代我的名时，还有点不习惯呢，常常抗议。可是后来，我也习以为常。 反而现在，好像没有人再记得我的名或用我的名呼唤我了。。。 回想当时选 ‘Ocean’ 时，应该是我正迷惑着，就像迷失在海洋真中央，不知去向。 那时我即将毕业，人生的新旅途也即将诞生。 一直以来都是以既来之，则安之的态度对待我的人生。 社会这名词是多么的陌生。 我不知道我应该以怎样的心态来面对。 我能适应吗？ 我能面对社会的险恶丑态？ 我想我是很彷徨的。。。 可是出来社会工作，也没遇上什么大风大雨，也只能说一路来都是平平凡凡的过了。 有时还开始怀疑这是我想要的吗？ 我又跌入了无底的海洋里，试图挣扎找出路。 工作换了一份又一份，我想我还是在一望无际的海洋里，寻寻觅觅地找一个可以让我靠岸的避风港。

It was so frustrated this morning. I was heading to my office. Looking outside the door, my sister's car was blocking my car. Once get in my sister car, I need to unlock her car's door, steering lock and gear lock. After park her car, I have to lock back the gear lock, steering lock and car's door. My car even worst, my dad provided 2 steering lock but usually I just use one of it. Even my inner doors, I think we have at least a few locks. Why Malaysian need so many locks? Even with all these locks, one day you might found that your car is missing somewhere or house being burgled. :( I went to Bangkok a few weeks back. I was so surprised to see that their car was parked without pulling the handbrake due to limited parking space. They'll reallocated the car if the car is blocking their way. I don't think it'll ever happened in Malaysia because if you do that, probably your car will not be seen when you come back. So don't feel strange when you visit Mal...

Today found a box near the stair case. Wondering what's inside the box I just opened it. Surprisingly I found the body fat analyzer given by a Japanese Coordinator 3 years back. Check out the battery, there were still 4 AAA batteries inside without any leakage. I just pressed the "電源" button to switch on this little machine. Wow, it was still functioning, huray! A bit unbelievable. Still wondering how to operate this small machine. Just click here and there. It was pretty easy, the body fat analyzer will analyze the body fat according to your height, weight, age and gender. Then it will categorize your body fat into 4 level - slim, standard, slight obese and obese. After inserting all my information, i tested it out by putting my hand on the side way of the small machine. Guess what??? My body fat level was --> 21%. STANDARD !!! Hehe...

Damnoen Saduak Floating Market situated 110 kms west of Bangkok. It's very famous among tourists to see the old style and traditional way of selling and buying fruits, vegetables, etc. from small boats. The best time to reach there is around 8-9am because it is not too hot at that time. Usually the floating market will closed at around 11am. My cousin wanted to go to the place alot but due to the location where we stay it's hard to go out so early to take bus to the Floating Market. The day before that, I have asked my Thai friend to help out. He called up the previous taxi driver again - Mr. Dhan who left his contact to us last Friday. He promised to pick us up at 7am and 1700 baht for round trip. He was lost again on his way to my friend's house. He was late for an hour :( When he saw us coming out from the house, he was so surprised because he never aspected that his customer were us. Hehe... He even show us the picture he took for us in Ayutthaya. Along the way,...

With the help of my friend's employee (thai), she translated our itinerary into thai for us. According to her, most of the taxi driver do not know English so it's better to have it written in Thai. She adviced us to take taxi to Ayutthaya because it's more convenience and easy. It cost around 1500 baht. Later we decided to go by bus. Her driver drove us to the nearest BTS skytrain station - Thong Lo station . We took the BTS until the last station - Mo Chit station . From there we're suppose to take the bus to Ayutthaya. We asked around, but ended up taking taxi. We bargain until 1200 Baht for round trip to Bang Pa-In Summer Palace (พระราชวังบางปะอิน) and Ayutthaya (อาณาจักรอยุธยา) - Wat Mahathat ( วัดมหาธาตุ ), Wat Na Phra Mane() and Wat Lokayasutharam(วัดโลกยสุธาราม). Once inside the taxi, both of us were so tired and we just fall aslept. Since the taxi driver don't know much english, it's better for us to save our energy sleeping. We was awaken when he sto...