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今天本来带着很好的心情上班，因为一早已经把手头上的问题都解决了。谁知道又来了一个麻烦。在供应商还没开工前，我已经再三吩咐他们别弄错尺寸，不然麻烦可大了。我还特地带他们巡视环境一下，以确认要拉的路线。 可是最后他们还是搞错了。无名火就冒起来了。他们就要我将就，既然已经把同轴电缆剪了就接受。之前就因为其它供应商对那儿的环境不熟而他们有经验才找他们的。那儿是非常地带，必须非常小心，要不然打一世工也赔不起，才特地选他们的。可是他们竟然还是跟其它供应商一样。把我气地直发抖。 我就打电话去投诉，告诉他不能接受他们的要求，死都不肯罢休。他们也玩威胁，如果我要改的话，那么就必须等下星期了，因为没有足够的同轴电缆了。我也下了重话，做生意那里可以不守信用！明明说好路线了，为什么临时改变也没事先征求意见。 明知道我很赶，必须这个星期把工程完成，还跟我耍赖。他们也给我惹毛了，就说去吃午餐再收拾。 午餐回来后，他们竟然把两捆新剪好的同轴电缆送来。让我有点不好意思刚才的冲动及冒犯。应该好好的说而不是冲动的下判断。 连忙赔不是。他们很专业的在3小时内把工程完成。让我非常尴尬刚才的鲁莽，最后还打了电话去道歉。一时的冲动把我的眼睛给蒙蔽了。心里的火是非常可怕的。如果不好好的守住，它将烧了别人及自己。。。 从以前到现在，越来越发觉不了解自己，火气越来越重。以前我只会在家发脾气，可是现在公司里没有人是不怕我的。越来越不能也不想控制自己吧。。。

Today was really a hectic and busy days. A bit depress due to project need to finish in a week but PO still not yet out. Chase procurement for a few days but still can't get the PO being issued. :( After a long meeting with vendor and came back to my place. Surprising my colleague told me there are something in the freezer. They went for team outing today. Beg the lead to bring me along but was being rejected :'( Freezer? Mean ice-cream. Hop to the fridge, found a small Häagen-Dazs ice-cream cake in the freezer. Huray!!! Eating the expensive and claimed to be the finest ice-cream in the world, melted all my frustration and depression away. Actually life is just as simple as that. Just relax and enjoy :)

Wanted to buy DSLR for sometime but always give up due to the size, weight and not convenient to bring around. Recently do some research and still having some problem to decide which model to buy ~ Nikon D5100 or Canon 600D ??? Both have their pros and cons. Read through a few review, make me harder to make decision. In terms of price, Canon is a bit higher than Nikon. Canon support more lense with build in focus motor which Nikon doesn't support. Plan to get one by this weekend with my quaterly bonus. Before I bought it, I still have a few days time to think over it. Most probably will get Nikon D5100... or end up buying those compact digital camera....

最近经常在睡眠中惊醒。醒后总是冒着汗，身旁就躺着工作到一半的电脑还开着。影像中也没发什么恶梦。 密密糊糊中，就起身关掉灯及顺手把电脑盖上，想再继续睡，可脑海里总是不停的转。也不知想些什么就是难以入眠。 每天莫名其妙地一早起身，开始昨天未完成的工作。。。又开始读邮件，回邮件，直到上班时间又匆匆忙忙的去上班。 自从换了新的部门之后，都持续着这样的生活。每天都匆匆忙忙上班，迷迷糊糊中睡着，朦朦胧胧中醒来。总是有做不完的工作，赶不完的会议，追不完的业务。越来越像‘大耳窿’，到处‘讨债’。记忆力也开始衰退了。。。 最近看了台湾偶像剧－‘我不可能爱上你’。 里面提到了所谓的‘初老症状’。 如果你有以下症状，可能你也跟我一样，正面对着‘初老症状’，而你不知道： 01) 枕头旁边，电脑键盘旁边，出现一堆万金油、白花油、绿油精等提神药方 02) 只要坐下来，小腹就有一滩肉 03) 莫名其妙就会一大早醒过来 04) 躺在沙发看八点檔连续剧30份钟就会开始熟睡 05) 对于没有结论的冗长会议充满厌恶 06) 觉得自己快要被一堆密码淹没了！ 07) 对于年轻朋友不让座这件事情会非常介意 08) 对于磁场不对的人，可以毫无牵挂的跟她说再见、再见、再见…… 09) KTV热门点播排行榜的歌曲完全不会唱 10) 以前可以唱KTV到天亮，现在只要熬夜一天，就会累一个礼拜 11) 急于想加入facebook之类的网路活动，以免被年轻遗弃 12) 如果不喃喃自语，脑子就会打结。 13) 越近的事情越容易忘记，越久以前的事情反而越是记得 14) 觉得五份埔与路边摊的T恤都是给纸片人穿的 15) 以前烦恼青春痘，现在烦恼小细纹 16) 除非参加清早晨运的甩手功或庙会朝山活动，否则很难找到比自己年龄大的聚会 17) 对于陌生网友的我们可以交朋友吗？说法，觉得无比愚蠢而没有耐心 18) 认识新朋友的速度与机率逐渐钝化 19) 越来越觉得专家说法都是唬烂 20) 如果一天没有吃绿色蔬菜就会觉得身体怪怪的 21) 逐渐没有耐心替烂朋友收烂摊了 22) 越来越不喜欢改变已经习惯的习惯 23) 很讨厌在外面过夜，因为要带好多东西 24) 不知不觉，随身携带温水壶和牙线棒 25) 懒的交新朋友的原因，是因为懒的从头交代自己的人生 26) 终于认清老天爷真的很忙！ 27) 每次看到某某歌手某某影星过世的消息，就要感叹一次...

Every 2 years I'll get a new handphone with the 1k voucher. Initially wanted to get SE Vivaz Pro but with some bad experience I have had with SE, didn't dare to get SE anymore... I have a early celebration at Amcorp Mall Haeun Khon Resturant with LC. Accompany with me was some outages. Eating while monitoring the services. Sigh... It was really a terrible dark Friday - 13 Aug. Later LC introduced me Food Foundry located at Section 17 which is famous for it's French dessert - Mille Crepe. LC bought a 'Strawberry Mille Crepe' (RM 9) for me meanwhile I insist to get another 'Chesse Cake' (RM 9) for myself. Tonight we're going to depart to Sg. Lembing. I had wanted to visit Sg. Lembing for years but never realized. When LC invited me to join the trip organized by YM, I didn't think twice to join. So nice to celebrate my birthday there :) It was a very tiring trip but really enjoy myself there with YM's colleague and her friends. Although I'm no...

Just came back from Team Building at Temerloh " Gunung Senyum (Smiley Mountain) Recreational Forest on Thursday. Saturday morning went to Jerantut Pahang again which is around 45 minutes from Termerloh to attend Min's Wedding. This is the first time I was being invited to attend Malay's wedding. I was so excited how it would be like. Too bad that I missed out the akad nikah (marriage contract) ceremony because I was late. That was the most important ceremony where the bridal couple will sign the contract before a religious official and is accompanied by prayer. Without that the wedding will never be completed. You'll found alot of bunga telur (egg flower) being prepared and distributed to the guest at Malay wedding as wedding's ceremony token. It's actually boiled egg decorated with fabric flower as a sign of fertility. I managed to follow for the bersanding (enthronement) ceremony. The groom's procession with friends, relatives, musicians and ...

最近工作上的压力把我压得喘不出气来。在短短的一个月里，竟然消瘦了2-3公斤。原来自以为天塌下来，当被盖的我也会有这么的一天。。。 同事的突然离职加上新来的同事的不协调，让我有点应付不来。 老板的不信任更是让我吃不消。 每晚睡前都好担心夜里会接到电话。睡到夜半时也会惊醒，真是‘心惊胆跳’。 直到上个星期，情况终于好转了。有个好心人，帮了我们一个大忙。每晚他都会给我或同事一些指导，如何找出问题的根源。他的无私，让我们受益不浅。很多时候，供应商都不会把知识全部传授给客户。 可是他的热心却换来了后患无穷。他的支援被别人拿来当把柄了，原因是他违反了公司的纪律。 虽然我们的问题总算找出了源头，可是我却不知道如何向他道谢，致歉意。 真的是‘对不起’。。。

最近看似很繁忙，可是每次回想时才发现自己肯本就不知道在忙些什么。。。 一天一天，时间就这样流失了。离开2009年就好像刚过去，可是农历新年又即将来临了。 上个月因为百般无聊， 王同 就邀了我加入他们的小说部落格 - 城市●碎片 。一向对写作没什么心得或兴趣的我，就因为三分钟热度，爽快地答应了，还当下决定了题目呢。 日复一日，到现在我的草稿都写不出来呢。王同问起我时，非常尴尬地回答正努力着，还没灵感。。。 我真的可以写出来吗？？？还是没有一点头绪。。。

女人嘛。。。 是非常复杂的稀有‘动物’吧。其实很多人都不会把心里真正的想法说出来。往往心里想的是一套，嘴里说出来的又是另一套。总活在矛盾之中。 男人应该很难理解为什么女人不能直接点，要男人明白就告诉他们吧。为什么还要兜兜转转，扭扭捏捏地，转弯抹角，让人摸不着头脑。 男人必须知道，女人有很多保护自己的方法。其中之一就是口不对心。有时为了不想让对方知道或表露自己柔弱的一面，就嘴硬的睁眼说瞎话。 B女明明对A君有好感，可是又不知道A君是否也喜欢自己。当A君约B女时, A君：“你看了‘Avatar’吗？我有两张免费的戏票想找人看呢。你得空吗？” B女：“对不起，我看了。不能陪你看。” A君:“没关系。” B女：“。。。”。 B女正希望A君会用尽办法及理由来约她，以证实A君真的想追求她，以免表错情。 男人别误会所有女人都是那样。也有单刀直入的女人。所以男人应该先了解你所认识的女人是属于哪一种类型。

有一段时间，放了工就躲在房里无所事事的让时间过。 最近，就在大厅里一边看电视节目，一边网游。电视节目就在眼前‘跳’，可是我一点也没看进去。在一旁的老爸，就在一旁问东问西。 印象中的老爸是个不苟言笑又严肃的老爸。从小到大，都很少会坐下来陪老爸聊天。现在反而有点不习惯老爸这样的变化。 有时就会陪老爸瞎扯一番。当他开始唠唠叨叨地没完没了，就会借机逃之夭夭。 看着老爸，老妈子日渐增多的白发，突然觉得他们都老了。也发现他们越来越喜欢找我们聊天。可能人老了，就爱唠唠叨叨，怕寂寞及被冷落吧。。。

晚餐后，就想上网找朋友闲聊。可是登录了之后，望着长长的联系名单，突然不知道应该找谁聊，要聊些什么。。。 有一段时间没上网聊天了。突然想找人聊，还不知道如何‘下手’。 很多时候，尤其是很久已经没联系的朋友，即使看到他们在线，说了一句‘你好吗？’，就不知道该如何接下去。少了话题，就很难维持对话，结果就搞到无言以对的状况。。。 我曾经花上很多时间在网上陪朋友瞎扯，谈天谈地，有时更是谈至三更半夜而忘了睡。 可是曾几何时，我已经把网上闲聊的习惯戒了？这可能是一种好现象。至少可以节省电费！ 下次可能再也没人会在网上记得‘Ocean’了。。。

This is the second time I have been to i-City. First time was during Christmas Eve and today is for count down. There was fireworks display. Although the fireworks were not those special and nice one like Cyber Jaya Fireworks Competition but it was so close to you where you can felt that the sparkle going to drop upon you. Supposely today should standby at home and not sneak out for count down. 3... 2... 1... Happy New Year!!! Firework started to explore into the silence sky. Today is full moon :) Early morning, I woke up to assist my mom to move the foods from fridge to new house before the lorry came. My dad has given us notice that he's going to move the house today. He has been in the new house alone all this while. He must be too tired of having a new house without us :P We managed to finish moving those big furniture by 12:30pm. The most troublesome part for me will be 'selection' which items to throw away. I have been keeping alot of 'antique'. I think it...

Just step in my house, my sis and mom started to tell story. This afternoon, the house next next door on my right just caught fire. I looked at them unbelievable. Fire? I never thought it would happened just a few meter away from my house and my house was lucky to escape from the fire. The house next to it was caught by the fire as well. Then started to smell some burning smell. The root cause was suspected that the 6 years old child was playing with lighter upstair while his granny was doing house chore downstair. Accidently the fire started to spread. The granny was only notice when someone opposite shout that their house caught fire. The granny immediately escape out from the house with her grandchild. She knocked on my door to borrow the phone but my sis thought it was just some swindle and do not bother her. Later only she sense something went wrong because it was a bit chaotic outside and some burning smell. My mom who came back in the afternoon saw the fire was spreading through...

原来我太执著了。 只为了某种信念，只要认定了，誓死也很难改变。就因为这种执著的格性，反而造成周遭的朋友身心俱疲。 与其说执著，不如说是那种好胜的心理在作怪。就是那种死爱面子的人。即使错了，还是不肯承认，还想撑到底。 其实很多时候，只要我稍微改观，接受他人的想法，很多事都能有个大团圆的结局。可是偏偏却为了我小小的执著，很多事都不能迎刃而解，反而闹得大家面红耳赤，不欢而散。 常常想，这是不值得的。人生还有好一段长远的路要走，还有很多事要做。对事有要求固然好，可是太执著反而坏了大事。 想与行动往往成了对比。话说得容易，做起来却是那么的困难。。。

Malaysia's December is full of holiday. Except the first week, we just need to work 4 days per week. Initially plan to go for SkyTrex on 11-December but later being cancelled. It was my fault because I fail to make the reservation early as planned. Felt so bad for my friends since we managed to gather around 10 pax for the activity. It has been a very long time since the last trip I had with HK, Sam, SK... Recently found that my sis went to Broga Hill (武來岸山) which located at Semenyih (士毛多) and the scenery look pretty nice. Suggested to HK for half day trip to Broga Hill. The response was not really good, only me, HK and Sam wanted to go for the hiking. Sam managed to pull some of his friend from Seremban to join for the hiking. There are 2 option either went there as early as possible to catch the sun rise or not. Since it's just for leisure, we decided to depart at 7am from Sam's house. SK joined us last minute. This is the first time I was late to reach HK's house. W...

Today I’m being a so call good daughter. Being kind enough to be a driver and doing grocery with my mom. Although I have been around home for around 3 years but I hardly remember that I ever accompany my mom to do grocery on weekend. Usually my life is kind of boring and I have rather choose to stay at home to sleep, watch movie or drama instead of accompany my mom and aunt for grocery. Today I even volunteer to fetch them to Tesco to do their grocery. That was pretty tiring. How they select the fruits and veggies… Comparing price… This is cheaper in Tesco, that’s cheaper in Giant… The time just passed without my notice. 3 hours was just too short for them. After going to Tesco, my aunt wants to go to Jusco to buy rice because it’s cheaper there. I’m pretty patient today and not showing my annoying look which I usually show when I have to wait for long queue and being driver fetching here and there. Though this is a boring and tiring task but just felt it’s good after all to be a good ...

女人，你要如何让自己幸福？可能读了这几则短篇你就是那幸运儿。同样的情况，结果却是浑然不同。 第一则 ===== 她：“老公。帮我接杯水呗。” 他：“石头剪子布。谁输了谁去。” 她：“算了。我自己去吧。” 他们坐在一起看韩剧。她起身。 他：“干吗去？” 她：“去接杯水。” 他：“你坐这看吧。我去给你接。” 女人多可怜。她对男人唯一的要求就是“疼她”。你可以什么都没有。只要你疼她。她就有足够的勇气把自己的下半辈子交给你。 第二则 ===== 他晚上下班。给她打电话“宝贝儿。我晚上和朋友出去吃饭。” 她：“你不是答应我陪我逛街的吗？” 他：“改天吧！” 她默默地流泪。为什么每次都是这样？ 他下班的时候打电话给她:“亲爱的。别人给我一张奥运会的票。巴西队啊！一会儿我去 看球了啊。” 她：“哦。这样啊。好吧。” 他：“怎么不高兴了？” 她：“你忘了。上周说好今天我朋友和她男朋友请我俩吃饭啊。” 他：“哎呀。对不起亲爱的。我忘记了。那我把票给别人吧。我陪你去吃饭。” 她：“不要了。吃饭可以改天。或者你先去看。我们等你。” 他：“那不行。答应你的事情必须得做到。再说你自己跟他俩在一起像电灯泡似的。你肯定不舒服啊” 她：“没事……” 没等她说完。 他很强势的告诉她“好了。听我的。你收拾一下。我一会儿去接你。” 其实女人不是不懂事。只是。她需要碰上一个懂事的男人。其实。情侣之间。是可以互相的。 第三则 ===== 他：“我晚上出去吃饭了啊。” 她：“几点回家？” 他：“九点之前肯定回家。” 九点半，她：“你怎么还不回来啊？” 他：“十。肯定回家。” 十一点。十二点。一点。两点…… 后来。她不再打电话催他。因为她知道。对于不守承诺的男人。一切“肯定”都是“未必”。 他：“我晚上出去吃饭。九点之前肯定结束。然后我俩去看电影。” 她：“你能那么快就结束吗？” 他：“放心吧。我答应你了就一定能！” 快到九点的时候。他：“收拾一下吧。我马上就到你家了” 信任。是在一件一件小事中建立起来的。 第四则 ===== 她生理期。身体不舒服。顶着疼痛洗衣服。收拾屋子。 他坐在电脑前面玩网络游戏。 她干完活。躺在床上。长出了一口气。 他看了她一眼：“宝贝儿。辛苦了！” 然后转过头。继续玩他的游戏。 她生理期。很难受。起身准备洗衣服。 他拽住她：“你去床上躺着。我来！” 她：“你会做家务吗？你自己洗过衣...

Another luxury dinner being arranged by my uncle to welcome my cousin coming back from Dubai. Unfortunately he was tied up with his work and did not manage to come back on-time for the dinner. Luckily we still can celebrate my aunt's 66th birthday which fall on the same day :) The dinner was among the most delicious we have had compared to the previous one. Besides that, we have expensive brandy to accompany throughout the dinner - Martell Creation . Here is the full list of 10 dishes we were going to savour tonight. The first dish was 'Lobster Platter with Five Dishes' - Fried Chicken, Fried Fish Fin, Cheesy Slice Abalone, Lobster Salad and Sweet and Sour Sausage. I alway love this dish because each small dish has it's own different taste and unique flavor. 'Sharkfin Soup with Scallop and Crab Meat' - The soup itself was really delicious and sweet after long hour of cooking with the incredients. 'Crispy Little Piggy' - I just ate the skin with the ...

"814" - What does that mean??? Numbers has been widely use to represent some words in chinese. It's widely use in SMS, MSN... For an example :- 918 ~ ‘加油吧’ (Ganbate!) 88 ~ ‘拜拜’ (Goodbye) 246 ~ ‘饿死了’(Starving) 168 ~ ‘一路发’(Keep on getting wealthy) Then what does 814 mean? In chinese it can be interprete into 2 different Chinese words, '发一世' and '发一死'. Both of the interpretation give total different meaning. The prior mean get wealthy your whole life, the later mean once you get wealthy you'll be dying... Never thought of the meaning hiding behing those numbers until one day while I was talking with my friends and she asked when is my birthday. She just kept on repeating my birthday then suddenly she just connect 14-Aug to the above 2 Chinese words. Now, when they asked for my birthday, I'll just use the first Chinese words since it give a better meaning :) While I was counting down for my birthday on MSN, the first call came in. The one and only ...

Finally make up my mind to join my friend's super challenging and exotic tour to Mulu. It'll be a total 10 days 9 nights at Gunung Mulu National Park which include Gunung Mulu Summit Trail (2,377meters), Deer Cave, Lang's Cave, Bat Exodus, Sarawak Chamber Cave , Clear Water Cave, Wind Cave, The Pinnacles . Initially do not plan to join the tour due to this year, every 3 months I took a long holiday. It has been pretty hard to take long holiday as whenever I went for vacation, something bad will happened... This time I just can't bring my laptop along :( Furthermore, I made a big mistake when I made the flight reservation. I booked the ticket on 28-August instead of 29-August. Deep inside my heart, I was thinking it might be my destiny that I shouldn't join for the trip... So I told BY that I'm joining but later told her that I can't make it after the wrong flight reservation. After struggling hard, I decided to take the challenge. But after reading through ...